I hate to be a proverbial belly-acher, but seriously? How much is one person supposed to take before you say enough and end it? Even if you want to live, the roadblocks keep coming at all angles. And “living” is a luxury.
Where I am now, a roof, toilet and kitchen, is a home I am humbly thankful for, even though all my things from one storage unit is under traps on the dirt. Everything. And I can’t get to it because of instability and confusion and lack of mental reasoning to fully comprehend what is in my heart and mind, because I become too upset and I just can’t take it. And no one underatands that.
My Facebook friends don’t get that. I had a stroke. Awww. She’ll get better with time. I had a vascular lucanar stroke at 51. 1/5th of the population has that at 65. Sixty-five. There are no percentages for 51 year olds other than within that 1/5th. Is it 1%? 0.5%? 5%? I can’t find any numbers due to it’s rarity and not needing to know, most likely.
How can I get people to see there is an issue when I can’t even explain it to them? When I don’t know myself.
And how can I explain that moving things that were inside the house are now under a tarp on the dirt and I should be fine with that because I didn’t sell it or give it away? I can get used to having nothing because I will soon enough.
I’m even fearful of doing laundry because my friend has “smell” issues like Tide. I’m trying, but being accommodating is so damn hard when I don’t have the brain I once did.
And now she wants to insure I find housing by December 1st. There is nothing in Livermore, especially Section 8 and I have no income. Homelessness is a very real and serious problem in the Bay Area, especially for someone who can’t work and is waiting on Social Security.
I don’t know what to do. Any suggestions? Please don’t say Salvation Army or St. Vincent’s or some other Christain Charity. There is help for veterans, not civilians who have suffered a life changing disability and doesn’t know where to turn.
If you can, or if you know anyone who may help, please refer them to http://www.GoFundMe.com/Life4V
Or, if you know a reporter or journalists or someone connected to media, please pass along my story. I need all the help I can get. Because someone crying wolf doesn’t get tje time of day, let alone a reply.